The heat-filled steam will help my cold hands!

High-scoring word of the night so far:

VARAS (192 points) - against Karla M.

Got another draw in Wordscraper, against my dear friend Raymond C. - YAY! Also, Richard Y. / Mags H. added me for the blood games.


Henry absolutely rocks! I went outside at around 3:30 to throw some of Korey's stuff away, and he pulled up just as I had finished doing that. He said he'd tried to call me, so I told him an abridged version of what happened. We discussed costume parties, ideas, LOST, PHANTOM OF THE OPERA, dinner, studying, small parking spaces, the back way, and such while listening to music. It's weird how I feel differently in Henry's Mini than in Ada's vehicle on the way home - dunno why. In Henry's car, I'm somehow on top of the world and empowered and excited... in Ada's, I'm back to my usual slightly-flattened self. Interesting... it's NOT based on how they treat me, either! We're all friendly here, even down to asking whether we did anything interesting!

When I got to church, I saw my mom - that came as a surprise. Good thing I did, since she wants me to go with Eric tomorrow because they have no Sunday School. Should be doable, and I told her about the bill situation, and that we broke up. She said they were worried because of his immaturity, so at least that's okay then! Was kept busy with birthdays, helping Jordan and Eric, greeting people (Joshua's SO cute!), telling David that I *was* keeping track of the records, and more. No idea why I felt a bit embarrassed / guilty when I was doing what I was supposed to! Maybe because the security guard was around, haha.

I also resolved to go to the doctor and the library on Monday - not MY fault that I'm ill, haha. Melia says she invited my brother to the party on Remembrance Day, so I'll see what he says when he gets back! We all noticed it was really cold in the fellowship hall - right now, I'm boiling a ridiculous amount of macaroni, and letting my hands warm up in the steam, heh. Went home with Ada and her sons - Sean kept saying "200! 189!" and knew where we were going before they had dinner at Parker Place. His teacher said he can respond to things like "What's your brother's name?" and had a "good" presentation - at least he LOVES school and participating! Ian didn't know whether a truck in front of us was indeed a dump truck, but I guess BOB THE BUILDER helps with that! They like music too, so that's good!

Currently arguing with Corey over the size of his head - good times. :D

Amanda Marshall, Nickelback, and Christina Aguilera

High-scoring word of the day so far:

SIC (126 points) - against Colin W. [4W, 2W, 3L on C, hook off MANTID]


This thing restarted overnight, and Brandon H. [Hall] / Donald H. added me for the blood games. Steph and Danielle sent me supportive messages, which is GOOD. I'm laughing over memories of the fireworks in 2007 - hearing Rihanna sung off-key was REALLY BAD! (never mind seeing someone get arrested...) My situation reminds me of these songs, really.

Song: Birmingham
Artist: Amanda Marshall
Album: Amanda Marshall

Virgil Spencer's got a nineteen-inch Hitachi
And many demons lingering
Friday night, he pulled a gun to change the channel
Something that he picked up from the King
His wife remembers well the man she knew
Seems the dreams she had have all turned black and blue
She's wasted years
No time for tears
'Cause there's another chance and a someday soon
Shining like the Alabama moon
She's looking for her promised land
Out beyond the lights of Birmingham
It's three AM, and Virgil's passed out on the sofa
A fifth of Jim Beam on the floor
She's packed a bag, she slips the keys out of his pocket
She's careful not to slam the door
And as she drives, she rubs her rosary
She's never been so all alone, she's never felt so free
She's got miles to go
Blind faith and hope
'Cause there's another chance and a someday soon
Shining like the Alabama moon
She's looking for her promised land
Out beyond the lights of Birmingham
As the rain falls down upon the interstate
Any doubts she had are all but washed away
One long look back
At Birmingham
'Cause there's another chance and a someday soon
Shining like the Alabama moon
She's looking for her promised land
Out beyond the lights of Birmingham


Song: Never Again
Artist: Nickelback
Album: Silver Side Up

He's drunk again, it's time to fight
She must have done something wrong tonight
The living room becomes a boxing ring
It's time to run when you see him
Clenching his hands
She's just a woman
Never Again

I hear her scream, from down the hall
Amazing she can even talk at all
She cries to me, Go back to bed
I'm terrified that she'll wind up
Dead in his hands, She's just a woman
Never Again

Been there before, but not like this
Seen it before, but not like this
Never before have I ever
Seen it this bad
She's just a woman
Never Again

Just tell the nurse, you slipped and fell
It starts to sting as it starts to swell
She looks at you, she wants the truth
It's right out there in the waiting room
With those hands
Lookin just as sweet as he can
Never Again

Seen it before, but not like this
Been there before, but not like this
Never before have I ever
Seen it this bad
She's just a woman
Never Again

Father's a name you haven't earned yet
You're just a child with a temper
Haven't you heard "Don't hit a lady"?
Kickin' your ass would be a pleasure

He's drunk again, it's time to fight
Same old shit, just on a different night
She grabs the gun, she's had enough
Tonight she'll find out how fucking
Tough is this man
Pulls the trigger as fast as she can
Never Again

Seen it before, but not like this
Been there before, but not like this
Never before have I ever
Seen it this bad
She's just a woman
Never Again


Kathy T. just told me about this one... EMPOWERMENT RULES!

Song: Fighter
Artist: Christina Aguilera
Album: Stripped


When I thought I knew you
Thinking that you were true
I guess I couldn't trust
'Cause your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were there by my side
Always down for the ride
But your joyride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Oh, ohh

Never saw it coming
All of your backstabbing
Just so you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard you're going around
Playing the victim now
But don't even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh-huh

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes, you wanted to harm me, but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust, so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretend not to know the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end, you'll see
YOU-WON'T-STOP-ME

I am a fighter and I
I ain't gonna stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough

[Chorus]

You thought I would forget
But I remembered
Cause I remembered
I remembered
You thought I would forget
I remembered
Cause I remembered
I remembered

[Chorus]

Secondhand Serenade lyrics... thanks, Golden!

Corey's proposed dinner of steak and shrimp is making me hungry, haha. Maybe one day!



Here are some lyrics that Golden told me about. The R.E.M. / Colin James / Sarah McLachlan lyrics are from my own thoughts, and not his! Thanks, Golden... you exemplify your name to me, heh. :)


Song: Like A Knife
Artist: Secondhand Serenade
Album: A Twist In My Story

I dream a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life


Song: Losing My Religion
Artist: R.E.M.
Album: Out of Time

Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no, I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt, lost, and blinded fool
Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up

Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream


Song: Everybody Hurts
Artist: R.E.M.
Album: Automatic for the People

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.

Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. (repeat & fade)
(Everybody hurts. You are not alone.)


Song: I'm Losing You
Artist: Colin James
Album: Traveler

Here in some stranger's room
Late in the afternoon
What am I doing here at all?
Ain't no doubt about it
I'm losing you
I'm losing you
Somehow the wires got crossed
Communication's lost
Can't even get you on the telephone
Just got to shout about it
I'm losing you
I'm losing you
Well, here in the valley of indecision
I don't know what to do
I feel you slipping away
I feel you slipping away
I'm losing you
I'm losing you
Well now, you say you're not getting enough
But I remind you of all that bad, bad, bad stuff
So what the hell am I supposed to do?
Just put a bandaid on it?
And stop the bleeding now
Stop the bleeding now
I'm losing you
I'm losing you
Well, well, well
I know I hurt you then
But hell, that was way back when
Well, do you still have to carry that cross? (drop it)
Don't want to hear about it
I'm losing you
I'm losing you
Don't want to lose you now
Wellll!
So long ago


Song: I Will Remember You
Artist: Sarah McLachlan
Album: Mirrorball

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so tired, but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much, but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

Tara and James rock!

High-scoring word of the day so far:

AGAZE (144 points) - against Colin W. [2W, 4W]


Julie invited Josiah to join Facebook, so we'll see what comes of THAT! David L. / Michael B. / Debbie M. / James T. added me for the blood games, haha. Just realized a potential consequence of my plan to have the online payment process time happen over the weekend. What about tomorrow?! Email contact is not the most ideal way to arrange rides! I'll send Telus an email today, and hope they get it fixed. Got to talk to Tara / Eric yesterday, and James today - reconnection and such is pretty good, even if we barely know each other, haha. (SCHOOL AND LJ FOR THE WIN! Advice is cool, too.)


FRIDAY FIVE

When did you last...
1. scrounge for change (couch, ashtray, etc.) to make a purchase?
2. visit a dentist?
3. make a needed change to your life?
4. decide on a complete menu well in advance of the evening meal?
5. spend part of the day (other than daily hygiene) totally / mostly naked?

1. Must have been at least a month ago!
2. Yesterday.
3. Fairly recently - it's hard, but I'm getting through it!
4. Hmm... me, decide on complete menus?! Hahahaha. Maybe a few months ago!
5. Um, no comment. Maybe in the summer when it was too hot! :P [sorry for the TMI]

This is where I (ab)use the BLOGGER feature again: HE causes drama!

HA. I should have known he'd leave a comment on my blog, AND email me at the same time. I was kinda hoping he'd read it since I posted that letter there as well, and was expecting this. For posterity, here is the comment AND the email. Yup, you bet it's cleaned up for spelling and grammar!

Comment: "How pathetic, Leslie... but wait, you always were pathetic. Look what you did to Randal and me. Leslie, I hope you live a long alone bitter life. While you're at it, grab a personality, you piece of shit. I see you as worse than my mom's boyfriend. So do me a favor, and never talk or write about me again. Just so you know, Crystal is not a slut. That would be you, putting out to Palmer like you did. But wait, you never had any class anyways, calling my friends cocklicking whores and talking about slitting mine and my friend's throat. If that isn't normal, I don't know what is. Yes, Leslie, I cheated on you the whole time. You're a friggin' idiot. For someone who is all about grammar, you're pretty dumb. I never once cheated on you, and I put up with you for a long time. What did Randal say? Hmmm... "How did you do it as long as you have, Korey?" And you know what? He was right. You're a pain in the ass, Leslie, and you are messed up in the head. Hopefully, it works out for you and Jeremy... but wait! It won't. Someone who is 32 and as immature as you are... you're pretty pathetic. What kind of name is Leslie Ng? Oh wait, it's a bald-headed pigeon like you, haha. Chew on that, you pathetic messed-up loser.

P.S. By the way, your so-called Internet friends laughed when they found out you got them to harrass me. Why? Because I told them you're 32 with no life, haha."

What *I* did to him and Randal?! I don't recall doing ANYTHING to him and Randal, other than suggesting K shouldn't be friends with R because of our relationship. Karen said that R didn't want to come between us. Even if that's a lie, I think it's better than K's comments on the subject! I can do whatever I want, which includes talking about him!

I certainly don't recall talking about slitting anyone's throat, although I did say that I'd kill anyone who came between us! He doesn't know me very well if he thinks I'm all about grammar, TRUST ME! *I* put up with HIM for a long time, not the other way around! As for Crystal, I never actually said she WAS a slut... I said that her Facebook picture made her LOOK like one. There he goes again, telling me that the thing I had with Palmer was slutty. As far as I'm concerned, at least it was with ONE guy at ONE time, and that's not slutty. It's not like I was cheating on anyone at the time!


Email: "By the way, Leslie, you keep going with your pathetic garbage about me on your blog... you will be the one to shut up when I tell everyone the full inside scoop on you. So just a piece of advice: You keep going, and I will let everyone know the full story, starting with Randal. You trashed me long enough, and actually I think it pretty pathetic. But hey, you were always about that, weren't you. And I expect you to call me with an apology too, for all the shit and crap you have put me through. You think you're so great? Then why is it I'm with Lacey, and you're all alone? I wonder why, that is, and plus... she is out here right now visiting for a week. So in a way, you have no reason to be mad at me. You threw the relationship away in the first place. So keep going with your garbage, and I will tell everyone the full story, including your family."

The last sentence contains the threat I've heard many a time. For his information, I haven't called him - how can I, when my phone service has been cut off? I'm not sure if I should, haha. And if he IS with Lacey, I knew I had a reason to be jealous of her. Definitely NOT responding to his comment (which I've actually deleted) OR the email. Sheesh. *head spins* As for "throwing the relationship away," I'll have you know I worked damned hard on it! I only "threw it away" when it became apparent that there was a pattern of lies and manipulation afoot. At one time, I'd have been jealous that Lacey got to see Kamloops before me, but I don't really care right now. I will NOT waste my feelings on either of them. [as I type up this entry, har har]

Yes, I can understand why he wouldn't want certain things out on the Internet, but (as I've said before) he lost that privilege a LONG time ago! He said that if I worked on myself, then I wouldn't have a reason to be jealous of Lacey. Well, I still had a reason nonetheless. Maybe I was going about it the wrong way, but I don't really care right now. If you have any negative comments about this, please keep them to yourself!

I deserve the apology, not him! NO REASON TO BE MAD AT HIM?! When HE was the one with unfulfilled promises and stuff up the wazoo?! HA HA HA. He is just being an ass, like he always was. GARBAGE, huh? Well, if THIS is how you treat someone whom you used to love... then I'd say I have the right of the matter! Not that posting what I did was the greatest thing ever, but I really don't want him back in my life. Ew, no!

You bet I can type quickly! / Hairdryer-like instruments in your mouth / BBT Tally

High-scoring word of the day so far:

RETAX (120 points) - against Valinda B. [5W, 2W]


I was looking for my wallet / debit card and watch earlier. Finally found them, under Nicholas and Alexandra. Ha, I *knew* I didn't do anything untoward with them!

The man beside me at the library says I type quickly - you bet I do since I'm the typing QUEEN! It must be from years of frantic IM conversation - and I still remember that one random person who wanted me to respond to ONLY him because it was a waste of his energy to be kept waiting. Yeah, shut up! I also remember the old man in this very library years ago, who complained because I was typing too loudly. Just keep your comments to yourself!

Speaking of keeping comments to yourself, I dislike overly inquisitive dentists who ask you questions in the middle of working on you. Sure, they do need to know some things, but can't they keep it till after the procedure as far as is possible? It also doesn't help when they leave you alone for five minutes while they listen to some guy talk about (as far as I could tell) some new tooth breakthrough. Yikes! I was kinda glad for the break initially, but grew more impatient as the minutes crawled by. They injected my teeth with filling, and then used a device that looked like a mini hairdryer with an orange barrier at the top... with a LOT of air from a big air tube to make sure it held. Interesting stuff... now, I'm off to Safeway to buy the biggest box of pasta I can find!

Man, my parents are gonna get a shock this weekend if they call me and find my number's out of service. That's what the receptionist AND an assistant asked me about as soon as I made my appearance at the dental office today. "Is your phone number still the same?! Has it been changed?!" I was not pleased at having to explain to them that SOMEONE ran up the bill. At least things are fine, in that I actually remembered my appointment! I also remembered CIBC bank machines, PINs, and more.

Cathy, Chris, Rick R., and Todd sent me Facebook messages. I'm glad Chris has come up with a name for his fish, haha! Rick S. added me for the blood games, too. The only reason I'm at the Oakridge Library is that I needed to do something with my zero-usage tags which I couldn't do at home. Yay for doing things because I want to! My work here is done, even if it involves receiving an Evite to a November birthdays celebration at Melia and Angus' new place on Tuesday, Nov. 11 at 4! Not sure HOW I'll make it there, or even IF... but we'll see!

Also had a kiwi bubble tea at L&G, so I'll record the bubble tea tally now also.

MONTHLY BUBBLE TEA TALLY, SEPTEMBER 2008 (2)

pudding @ Tri-Ty (Thursday, September 11) [thanks to Steve]
strawberry-mango @ Big Orange (Friday, September 26)


MONTHLY BUBBLE TEA TALLY, OCTOBER 2008 (1)

kiwi @ L&G (Thursday, October 23)


Edit at 6: I'm home! Since the big box of pasta was on sale, I allowed myself to get one big box of Cheerios as well. Yay for the 496!

This is where it all comes out, no holds barred...

You,

It's true that our relationship was fine and dandy... for the first couple of months. Then you wanted to pressure me into things like sex, even though you'll blame this one on me. You were the one who first started talking about it last August. I tried telling you that it wasn't Christian, but still you persisted. You know that I truly never really wanted that, even after you decided to try some things that led up to it, and then said that *I* was to blame, and took it away, only to change your mind after a few hours!

There was a very brief time where we insulted each other "in fun" - and I wish you would have kept it that way. I remember looking at Youtube videos with you, even when they weren't my favorite things in the world - American Idol and David Archuleta? Although I *did* like the Little House on the Prairie ones... haven't watched any since you left, though! Never mind the Beverly Hills 90210 / Young and the Restless episodes, either... those were fine, but that JERRY SPRINGER one was kinda over the top!

I should have known something was up after you didn't feel like meeting my family because you felt that they didn't like you. As far as I know, they never gave you a reason to think that way. They were probably looking out for me (like Eric did when he WARNED me not to let you borrow money), and you didn't like that. You also didn't like my talking to Candy about... anything, really. She knew what was up with you, and you sought to limit my contact with these people. You always complained whenever my sister would send you Facebook messages expressing her concern over the relationship, probably because you couldn't STAND to NOT be the ONLY opinion that mattered in my life.

You then MADE me open up MY private journal so you could see what I was writing about you. You did this numerous times. Then you blamed things on a "Mystery Person" who was sending you messages which were apparent copy-pastes of my posts. You wanted me to open up the journal so "you can say you trust me." Foolishly, I did. You also started to blame more things on me, and read my public blog just for mentions of you - THEN tell me that I shouldn't mention you at all because you're a "private" person. Dawn thinks that it really means "secretive," and she's probably right!

There was the time where you didn't want me to go on Facebook or Blog TV since I might spy on you - I should have taken that as a warning sign, but I thought it was a joke. For all I know, you were carrying on with people behind the scenes. (Lisa / Lacey / Crystal - who looks like a slut, by the way / who knows who else) The correct answer to "You weren't cheating on me as far as I know" is NOT "There you go! You should be with me!" Stupid person. Not that I would ever spy on anyone, ever... except maybe for laughs. You slowly started to keep tabs on me, and try telling me how I should dress. While I appreciated that you wanted me to look better, you were NOT dating a boy! If you truly liked me before, then you should have liked me the way I dressed a few months later!

You want to know WHY my demeanor was less than happy the time Eric and I went out to Chilliwack to celebrate your birthday?! To be honest, I felt a weight lift from my chest when we were talking about LEAVING the restaurant to drop you back off at your cousins' place. No, I didn't want to go in. Not just because I hung up on Terren that time... on another note, what kind of a name IS that? He was probably being really temperamental, and his wife Wanta might have been more soft. (what kind of a name is THAT?!) Maybe they didn't like me, but you know what? If they heard you yelling at me on the phone all the time, it was because YOU started it!

And you think that I'm the negative one. More like, YOU were negative! "I'm a positive person, babe!" Surrrrre you were, when you were constantly claiming that my family was brainwashing me, among other ludicrous claims! It's true that I probably still have my own issues with them, but that wasn't a call for YOU to try exploiting them! "You deserved what they did to you!" became "I don't think they should have done that to you" which became the original again... VERY quickly! Newsflash: I DID NOT DESERVE IT, AT ALL. NOR DID I DESERVE WHAT YOU DID TO ME. Nor did I deserve the empty promises of trips to Victoria, Port McNeill, Powell River, Kamloops, hotels, etc. I knew you didn't have the money for it, anyway - and why did I give YOU presents when I never really got any? This isn't about the material things, trust me. It's about INTEGRITY!

Remember the play-fighting? Yeah, I do too. It was fine as long as it was in FUN... but you very quickly turned it into something I was SCARED of! Then you thought that it would be fine as long as you were naked for me. Sorry, that doesn't change the SCARED feeling I got! You said that you were scared too, and that WE could go to counselling... also, that Brandon threw Zoe across a room once, and they're still together. Sorry if your friend is an ass, but that did NOT convince me. Yes, I did choke you once... but that was when you were RESTRAINING ME! Never mind that I supposedly hit you twice on live Blog TV... those were IN FUN, and clearly meant as such. Sure, Lisa recorded the conversation we were having on the phone, and that was BAD. Still, you shouldn't have been so quick to forgive THAT.

Yes, I know you were having a hard time since you couldn't find a job here. I also know that your friend Lucas died... at least, it's verifiable on Facebook. (unless there's a groupthink going on in regards to that, but I don't think there is... anything's possible!) Then your mom said your brother died... that's not verifiable to me. Still, that's no excuse to say that I wasn't emotionally available. I tried, but you said I'd go out even when you were going through those things. Melia and Angus' wedding was NOT something I'd miss, and it was scheduled LONG BEFORE Melissa told you about Lucas' death! That's what you don't seem to understand. I shouldn't ask anyone if it was OKAY that I went... sheesh! (you didn't demand I ask you before I left, but still...)

Yes, we did have good times, like meeting Ryan and Alison. I even remembered some of them in the last phone call I would ever make to you. Calling me "my little hayseed" / "Ivy" / "Violet," Richmond Sushi, IHOP, cooking together when you weren't training me to do everything FOR you with beef, cuddling on the couch, my holding your hand while you were sleeping on the couch, smelling your skin when I'd come up behind you, and other things were all very well and good. That is, until you started complaining about them and making me feel bad because I liked them! You liked the time we had at Eric's during New Year's, I know... you kept bringing it up as an example of a good time. True, and I would classify the anniversary meal as a good time. However, "we didn't even FIGHT that day!" seems a tad pathetic. Sure, we didn't fight... but on our actual anniversary, we did! Then you had the nerve to bring up threesomes with Steve... um, NO. Speaking of Steve, you KNEW he was a klepto, yet wanted me to invite him to stay. Now I know that what you're REALLY like is your cousins' friends, whom you disparaged to me as "people who just smoke pot and drink all day." Guess what you and Steve did the nights he was here? As far as I know, you didn't smoke pot... but then, you conveniently banished me to the library! (which you did, VERY often from June to August)

Eric had it right that time: why DID you put a password on MY computer when I was out? Sure, it was originally because Steve was staying over, but then that sucker should have been taken OFF the minute he left! He also stole $100 from me, although I wouldn't be surprised if it was YOU. No wonder you asked me a question once about whether I ever went through your black Bentley's bag when you were gone! I didn't, but I probably should have! I've found out that you STOLE my CHRISTMAS CARD that the CHURCH gave me last year - what kind of scumbag does THAT?! Sure, you said you weren't a scumbag when you said you wouldn't leave me because I was scared I might be pregnant... but YOU WERE THE ONE WHO DECIDED NOT TO USE A CONDOM! Not that it was GREAT, as I've said before! Although that's not the bloody POINT, really... it could have been the most mediocre sex in the world, but you didn't do it with a condom. YOUR FAULT, since you ASSUMED that I knew you wouldn't have one.

All those insults we hurled to each other "in anger" - how DARE you call me a dumb bitch, and say that I smell and am ugly? Then you tried to make it better by calling me "beautiful" and promising to be a better boyfriend. That DID work, for a while ONLY. If you're REALLY wondering why I turned into a "PENIS biter," it was because YOU pinched my nipples HARD and told me to get used to it! Get used to THAT, yourself! While we're on the subject: How dare you HIT me in a cab?! If I was thinking, I'd have ELBOWED you where it hurts. How dare you slap me after we talked about Randal, and tell me that I deserved it?! You were actually pinning me down on the bed too.... and I wasn't even HITTING you or anything! (your favorite excuse) Then there was the night that effectively ended things for me. True, I shouldn't have scratched you until you bled... but even you admitted (the next day) that it was an accident. I can't say the same for your reaction of PUSHING ME TO THE FLOOR and INTO MY BEDROOM DOOR, which is now off one of its hinges, thank you VERY much.

You told me that Randal thought my apology was half-assed... well, it was certainly sincere! You even liked that line I threw in (thanks, Karen!) at the end... the one about how the only person I had any romantic feelings for was Korey John Lee Austin. Okay, so I didn't throw your middle names in there, but you get the idea. It's true that Randal did start to avoid me, but whether that was because you TOLD him to, I don't know. Perhaps when I'm stronger, I can talk to him about things rationally. YOU LIED TO ME about not being friends with Randal anymore, last October. It's true that you said you didn't want to do this, but still... you could have sincerely done it for US! My previous feelings for him had NOTHING to do with what I told you about how I didn't feel comfortable with you two being friends, seriously. Speaking of feelings for people, you did your best to undermine what I did have for Jeremy. He is NOT ugly, and neither really was Palmer! (although, yes... Jeremy's cuter than Palmer... and cuter than YOU, even!) Sure, I shouldn't have done what I did with Palmer, but that's no call to guilt me into using my worst mistake (as of LAST August - now, my worst mistake would be YOU!) to get what YOU wanted. (me in bed with YOU!) Trust me, that is manipulative!

As for bills and money.... THANK GOD I FINALLY PAID OFF THE BILLS THAT YOU LET RUN UP! True, I should never have trusted you from April or May on, but you would always pay just enough to get by. It was YOUR idea, or so you said, to get down your tab - there never was a one last time with you, was there!? Just because YOU can do that with YOUR bills doesn't mean you can do that with MINE! You almost got my phone service CANCELLED, you lying sack of excrement! And to think my record of paying all my bills was TERRIFIC before YOU came along!

During the last week, I half-expected to see your name on my Caller ID. You wanted me to let you know whether I thought we could work "us" out - not after all the above, no. Then you emailed me yesterday to say that you'd found someone who's much better and more positive on your ego. Of course she would be, for now... I want to find the girl and warn her before it's too late. But I won't - I've told any number of people that I want nothing to do with you, and that's true. You wondered if I still loved you: the answer is that it's receding every day! True, love can't change overnight... but it inexorably did. I pity your "new girlfriend," if she even exists. You were probably cheating on me with some girl, too. Ugh.


Thankfully, no longer YOURS!


P.S. And you say you're a Christian. I don't believe you AT ALL. I'm not saying I'm the perfect Christian either, but I am better than you in that department! YOU corrupted me, and I blame YOU for my tarnish! You think Christians judge others, and automatically think they're better than others... well, I won't deny we're ALL human whether Christian or not. But that was NOT my intent upon entering into this relationship with you!

P.P.S. You never DID like my blogging, did you? Too bad... it's here to stay. It's true that I express myself better in words than YOU ever did, perhaps because you use the dreaded NETSPEAK and poor grammar. Maybe you express yourself better in person, but you shouldn't automatically tell me that NOBODY CARES about spelling and grammar. I have a LOT of people who can back me up on this one! For your information, my online friends are JUST as good as my real-life friends! (yes, you have a point about meeting random people for movie dates... but he was a creep anyhow!) I'm not saying they're more important than my real-life friends, but really.

Oh, and kindly return my LIBRARY book which you STOLE! I could keep this computer tower as collateral, you know...

Also just so you know: Screaming out a window alleviates my stress. It was NOT done for no reason at all. And I *did* tell you about the CP a LONG time ago. You did NOT just find out in October 2007, despite what you claim. Yes, I found that blog. Way to just plagiarize Wikipedia!

CHARMED episode

Bingo of the night so far:

HYALITE (112 points) - against Conor B.-G.


Timothy D. / Christopher L. / Brandon H. [Hart] added me for the blood games. The computer JUST restarted on me! Talking to Corey and Eric about stuff: the blog I found, Guns N'Roses, Fay, CHINESE DEMOCRACY, relationships, dark cloud being lifted OFF my personal sky (I like that!), Buckethead needing a chicken coop, Axl Rose being a perfectionist, and how it's good that someone's out of my hair! I talked to Dawn earlier: Yes, I can UPGRADE and find a truly HONEST person without certain problems! (debt and responsibility, anyone?)

Corey, on my restarts: "Stop going offline all the time. Half of what I type gets wasted because it fails to send, and you never tell me when you're back, and you'll go offline in minutes if I assume you're back." Well, I wish I could CONTROL when I go offline if the computer RANDOMLY restarts on me!

Edit at 9: Kevin JUST sent me an Evite for the Fellowship dinner in a couple of weeks. I don't know how the heck I'll afford it! *five minutes later* Hey, I got an interesting email - will think! Also just sent my brother a somewhat ranty email... maybe he'll respond as a brother AND a pastor! He appears to have done so: phew!

A Charmed Episode made by YOU! by shocking_sour
Name?
Age?
The Demon	is actually the Source, some bad dude named Lucifer. (odd coincidence) The Charmed trio meet him in an alley and finally destroy him with a magical knife.
The Love Problem	is that Phoebe gets a new boyfriend on a blind date, but he seems... a little... possessive.
Piper	finally divorces Leo.
Phoebe	is pregnant. With 3. 3 girls.
Paige	moves away after clashing with Phoebe.
Leo	actually becomes a decent father.
Wyatt	learns to read.
Chris	learns to talk.

I want a big box of macaroni, NOW!

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following. They have to be real places, names, things.. nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person in front of you had the same first initial. You CAN'T use your name for the boy / girl name question. You cannot use the same word twice.

WHAT IS YOUR NAME: Leslie.

BOY NAME: Lester, Lecroy, Liam, Leonardo.

4 LETTER WORD: Lain, lisp, list, lore.

GIRL NAME: Lavinia, Lavone, Larisa, Lauren.

OCCUPATION: Lawyer.

A COLOR: Lavender.

SOMETHING YOU WEAR: Leotards. (not for a LONG while, though!)

BEVERAGE: Lime green tea Snapple.

FOOD: Limburger cheese. (not saying *I* eat it! :P)

SOMETHING FOUND IN A BATHROOM: Lysol.

A PLACE: Luxembourg.

REASON FOR BEING LATE: Losing track of time.

SOMETHING YOU SHOUT: "Lunatic!"

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1. What's the connection between you and the last person that called you? Good friend.

2. What is wrong with you right now? Thinking too much about the ex.

3. What happened at 10 AM today? Emailing / paying bills.

4. When did you last cry? Just a bit ago.

5. Who do you hate? You don't want to know.

6. What do you want in your life right now? A truly good person!

7. Are you happy? I'm okay.

8. Eating? Cereal... man, I should have got a HUGE box of macaroni!

9. What do you smell like? Coast body wash, haha.

10. Drinking? Water!

11. Whats your favorite thing to have on your bed? Me, haha.

13. What do you wear to bed? Pajamas!

14. Do you tend to make relationships complicated? *I* don't. ;)

15. What are you doing today? Might go for a walk later... other than that, I'll be battling monsters and recovering stamina!

16. What was the last movie you went to see? DARK KNIGHT.

17. Is your shirt new? Definitely NOT!

18. Do you live near your ex-boyfriend / ex-girlfriend? No, thank goodness.

19. How many keys on your keychain? Two.

20. Are you a cuddler? Probably!

21. Last time you had fish? Too long ago!

22. Something you just don't understand? The way some people act.

23. Do you read? Of course I do, and I'm damn proud of it! :D

24. Do you sleep with a teddy bear? No... more like a stuffed duck!

25. Last thing that made you cry? Rollercoaster of emotions. :P

26. Whose house did you go to today? Mine.

27. What is the last thing someone bought you? Pho lunch... thanks very much, Eric!

28. Do you like anyone right now? Kinda.

29. Are you bored? Nope. I'm procrastinating!

30. Do you trust people easily? Maybe too easily... *sigh*

31. Do you say "dawg"? Hahaha, no.

32. What are you proud of? My friends!

33. Hobbies? Writing, reading, playing computer games...

34. Who was last to cook for you? The microwave. (haha, great answer!)

35. When you sleep, do you dream about heroin addicts? .... NO. My dreams are way more weird than THAT, man!

38. Name someone whose name starts with the letter "R." Raymond!

39. Do you care what others think about you? Not really, unless I need to make a good impression on them.

42. Do you think you'll be married in 10 years? Possibly!

43. Will you ever hug the last person you hugged again? Sure!

44. What do you look forward to in the next three months? Jon's birthday, Halloween, being ME again...

45. Who was the last person you called? The last person I attempted to call was Karen.

46. Who was the last missed call? I have no idea since my phone is cut off right now... probably Manitoba OR the dentist's office.

47. What's your ringtone? None.

48. Do you plan on moving out within the next year? Maybe! Stupid mice!

49. What were you doing at 9 PM last Friday night? Hmm... I stayed home, didn't I? Yes... so I was most likely slaughtering monsters! (which I should really get back to... AHEM!)

50. What would you do to the last person you emailed ABOUT? You don't want to know, trust me.

I pay my bills AND am strong!

Jason L. / Gleceria G. / Sendo K. / Charlie B. / Vic Z. / Ciara T. / Jasmine S. / Michelle M. added me for the blood games. Sent Eric an email, and am still enjoying the love of my friends, including Erin and Karen. At least they know how to use apostrophes properly, among other things! I pity someone's next girlfriend, seriously. Yay for Candy and Eric - both of them! Of course, that includes my other online friends like James and Kathy, who have been nothing but loving and supportive!

I've paid my bills, unlike SOME people I used to know. Thank goodness I don't feel obligated to them anymore - stinking manipulators! Paid $272.36 to Shaw, $50 to Telus, and must pay $177.53 to Telus by November 5 to avoid cancellation of my account. I'm putting these here for reference. No selfish people here, thank goodness! I shudder to think how my life would be lived if I'd gone through with an original plan!

Bzoink Survey

Name: Leslie.
Date: October 22, 2008.
Time: 1:12 AM.
Fave Color: Blue, purple, black.
Fave Food: Noodles!
What are you wearing: Blue-and-white sweater, red fuzzy pants, and striped socks... oh, and glasses.

Have you ever
Been kissed: Yes.
Kissed someone: Yes.
Been in love: Yes.
Drank?: Yes.
Smoked: Ew, no.
Lied to your parents: Yes.
Lied to your friends: I wish I hadn't.
Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend: No.
Gone out on a date: Yes.

In a boy / girl
Height: Taller than me, but not insanely tall.
Weight: Not FAT, but not a STICK.
Love or money?: Love.
Looks or money?: Looks will fade over time... money? Man, this is a shallow question. :P
Personality or looks: Personality!
Friends or boyfriend or girlfriend: Depends. Right now, friends.
Hair color: Doesn't matter.
Eye color: Doesn't matter.
Older then you?: Sure, why not. Maturity isn't a BAD thing!
Hairstyle: Doesn't really matter, as long as it's not TERRIBLE! (I know... it's subjective!)
Long hair or short: Long... and someone said it would NEVER happen!
Skinny or muscles: Not a musclebound hunk, but not super-skinny either!
Color: Doesn't matter...
Religion: Must have the same values as I do.

Either Or
Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee.
Taco or burrito: Taco.
Girl or boy: It depends.
PC or Laptop: PC.
Myspace or Piczo: Neither... but Myspace if I had to choose.
Snowman or moose: Snowman.
Panda bear or snowmobile: Panda bear.
Teddy bear or blanket: Teddy bear.
School or work: Work.
Zebra or lion: Zebra.
Friends or family: Friends!

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Anger

I am VERY angry right now. You don't want to know why. Suffice to say that I will never talk to a certain person AGAIN! Thank goodness for Eric H., Chantelle, Joe V., and Billie!

I have his stuff, so I decided to go through it. Yes, I know... I shouldn't have done it. BUT I found a rather nice Christmas card from the CHURCH! In HIS stuff! I'm taking back a bunch of my stuff which I found in there: notes, the personal items which I bought with MY money, the cards ditto, and other things like his Neo Citran!

I NEVER WANT TO TALK TO THAT IDIOT EVER AGAIN. He says Steve stole the $100, but HE probably did it. No wonder he was always asking me whether I went through his black bag when he was around!

Roast beef or turkey? Hmm...

Bingo of the night so far:

OURARIS (99 points) - against George M.


High-scoring word of the night so far:

BIMBO (144 points) - against George M. [two 3W]


Hey, I *do* qualify for the appreciation dinner in a couple of weeks - this rocks! Wonder if "the time of fun" will include karaoke like last year, haha. It was interesting to get a look into another culture without actually having to participate, haha. Good thing I have some time to think about whether I'll have roast beef or turkey, heh. Kelly P. and Peter C. also added me for the Blood Games! Now I have SIXTY Facebook people online, har har. I don't think most people I used to know can beat that! Also joined a group whose name literally made me laugh out loud: MEN ARE STUPID - THROW ROCKS AT THEM! Obligatory disclaimer: I know that "stupid" does not apply to ALL men!

Love survey, stolen from Billie

Stupid computer not having Firefox work for more than fifteen minutes at a time... *grumble* Guess I'll have to use IE for now, yuck! Talking to Talia about it since I also strangely can't make any outgoing calls... it'll give me a dial tone AFTER dialing a number! WTF? Paul S. added me for the blood games, too.

Had a strange dream about stuffing an orange cat into a plastic water jug to microwave it for half a minute. I asked someone if this was okay, and they said that it made the cats more docile, so I should do it. WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH MY SUBCONSCIOUS?!

Love survey

Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl? YES.

Anything been heavy on your heart lately? Sort of.

Anything you're giving up on? Yes.

Think of the person that said "I love you" to you last. Did it mean anything? NO!

Are you in love with the last member of the opposite sex you spoke to? Hahahaha, NO! Sorry, Eric. :P

Are you happy with who you are? Sure!

Do you enjoy drama? Not when I'm in it. When I'm out of it, it's daily entertainment. [good answer!]

Did you speak to your mother today? I don't plan to.

What color is your hair? Dark brown.

Who's bothering you right now? Nobody.

What makes you happy? Too many things to mention... one of them is time with friends!

You love someone? Yes...

Been suspended from school? Yup, for whacking Erika Fursevich over the head with a field hockey stick!

Last person you talked to on the phone? Eric, on Saturday.

In the last week, have you been hugged by someone? You bet! Thanks, Joshua and Ian!

Are you easily scared by horror movies? I don't watch them that often, but I probably am.

Do you still turn to your parents for advice or comfort? Hahaha, no.

Have you ever been in a bad relationship? Yes, and I'm glad I'm out of it now!

Have you ever punched a tree? Nope.

If someone gave you 100 dollars, would you spend or save it? Spend it on these bills... otherwise, I'd still spend it to treat myself. Or save it. Man, I'm so indecisive!

Do you find the opposite sex confusing? Sometimes, but I also find the same sex to be confusing.

What did you do today? Nothing so far. Unless you take the day as starting at midnight... then I wrestled with this temperamental beast, and killed a cyborg.

Does someone like / love you right now? Sure!

What date is your birthday? September 17, 1976.

Have you ever had a pet fish? Yes, and that was years ago. Oh, I *hated* cleaning the filter on that thing...

Do you think you'll make a good parent? That's what I hear, haha... though I might pass as an older sister. :P [good answer]

Are you taller than 5'5"? No. :(

What were you doing at 9 this morning? Sleeping!

Can you admit when you're wrong? Yes.

Is there a person of the opposite sex that means a lot to you? A handful.

Do you like to argue? No, it just stresses me out.

Have you ever felt replaced? I can NEVER be replaced! NEVER! YOU HEAR ME? Hahaha.

Do you believe exes can really ever be just friends? Depends on circumstances.

What kind of pants are you wearing? Red fuzzy pants.

Do your siblings dye their hair? My sister did it a few times...

Who can you best relate to in the last book you read? Hmm... A BREATH OF SNOW AND ASHES? Possibly Lizzie.

What's stressing you right now? Nothing, thank goodness.

Do you collect anything? Used to be coins (damn you, S!) ... now, I don't know. Books, perhaps. :P

If you had to dye your hair right now, what color would you choose? Electric blue. :D

Do you remember what you were doing on New Year's Eve 2006? Had a family dinner, and watched a SCRABBLE documentary. Jon, Harmony, and I then went to Kendrick's and had a good time talking to various people.

What are you listening to? Lindsay Buckingham in San Francisco on the radio.

What's the last movie you watched? DARK KNIGHT. Yeah, I need to get out more...

Are you tired? No.

Do your best friends all like each other? Probably never will, haha.

Did you have a role model growing up? No, but I still turned out A-Okay!

Do you remember who you liked in grade seven? Unfortunately. :(

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? Sleeping!

What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Restarting the computer, AGAIN.

Do you like your life as of now? I do, thanks.

How's your love life? It existed a bit ago... now I have to find it again!

Where did your last hug take place? New church building.

Kissed anyone who smokes? Ew, no!

Do you have the munchies right now? No.

Where is your phone? Right beside me.

Do you like country music? Meh, it's all right...

Have you ever had someone sing to you? Yup! I remember that time in the back parking lot, which was cool. Then there were the times on the phone... those were interesting. :P

Are you mad at someone right now? Sort of.

Do you believe in love? Yup.

Who is #1 on your top friends? Billie!

Will you get married? Hopefully!

What did you last eat? Cereal.

Would you change yourself for the person you love? I'd do my best to make it TRUE and ACTUAL change, yes!

When did you last cry? Yesterday, over memories. :P

Do you lie to your parents daily? Not DAILY!

Do you like dating people who are older than you? HAHAHAHA. Never tried it!

Did you ever fail a school year? No, but I failed a bunch of classes. *glares at Science and Math*

Do you think you'll be in a relationship this summer? Who knows?

Have you ever played GUITAR HERO or Wii? Yup!

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car? Definitely.

Where will you be in the next hour? Hopefully battling.

Stupidest thing you've done so far this summer? Summer's over... but I can think of a few things that would qualify.

At midnight, who were you texting? Nobody!

Do you have trust issues? Yup.

Have you ever regretted letting someone go? Life's too short for regrets!


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Do you like the person you are becoming? Yes, I'm becoming more open!

Has anyone ever called you perfect before? No, but I've been called amazing before! (thanks, Jim)

Did anybody ever call you beautiful? Yup, Korey did!

A person that you miss? Chinese Eric!

Do you look more like your mom or dad? Not sure... probably my mom, but people also say I look like my dad. MAKE UP YOUR MINDS!

Last item you bought yourself? Ice cream.

Can you whistle? Not really.

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? Haha, no... I'd probably wince every time I felt pain. :P

Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back? Side.

What gets in your way of your sleeping? Being a night person, thoughts and worries about various things, etc.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? Yes.

What makes you laugh? Stewie!

How do you feel about chocolate-covered strawberries? YUMMY!

How do you vent anger? Writing about it in MY journal, talking about it, taking walks...

What is the worst feeling ever? Knowing you screwed up, and there's nothing you can do about it.

What are you looking forward to in the next month? Whatever the guys cook up for Jon's birthday, haha.

Do you think you would make a good wife / husband? Would it be too cocky if I said yes? :P [good answer]

Who have you texted in the last 48 hours? Nobody.

Do you think too much or too little? Depends what I'm thinking about.

Do you smile a lot? Yup! Sometimes I don't, though.

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing? Koret.

Are there things you can't live without? Shelter, food, clothes, laughter, air.

What was your first thought when you looked in the mirror this morning? I don't think I looked in the mirror this morning! :P [good answer]

Are you a morning person or a night person? Night!

Do you drink tea? I'm CHINESE! Of course I do!

Who was the last person you cried in front of? I'd rather not say.

Who did you last go out to eat with? Nathan, Jon, Jeremy, Eric, and Tony at Pho!

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them? I talk about them with friends, but hide them from the person. [good answer]

Are you waiting for something? Always, and I don't mean the maxipad! :D

Does anyone hate you? Quite possibly.

Where are your siblings? One is in Regina, and the other one could be almost anywhere.

Are you happy with your life? Generally, yes, although there's a lot missing. [good answer]

Can you handle the truth? Usually... but then sometimes I don't wanna know it. [good answer]

Are you a jealous person? Depends, but generally no.

Do you get 8 hours of sleep everyday? Not exactly eight.

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? Why would I hate Eric? I could NEVER hate him! (well, unless he did something which I couldn't forgive...)

Is there something you always wear? Yes.

Have you ever thought about converting your religion? Not seriously.

What's most stressing right now? People who think certain things, and this computer acting up!

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THE UNCOMFORTABLE SURVEY
(Let's see if you can get through it. If not, you're too scared about your past)

Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? Not to my knowledge.

Are you happier single or in a relationship? Can't say, although maybe in a relationship if it were mutual and 100% fair. [good answer]

What is your favorite thing about the opposite sex? Eyes.

Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? Yes, damn it!

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? It depends on how badly they messed up. [good answer]

Believe in love at first sight? Nah. Connections, maybe. Love, no. [good answer]

Ever been given an engagement ring? Haha, nope! Was promised one, once... but let's not go there. :P

Do you want to get married? Yes. I don't see how these questions have anything to do with my past, though... [good answer]

LJ should NOT be a porn site!

Got my buss pass application in the mail today - good thing I have the money for it in my chequing account, because a certain stupid person isn't a drain on my life anymore! Also, I have 54 online friends right now in Facebook - beat THAT, all you punks! :P

I never want to see big red links to Russian porn OR naked people on the latest posts page again. LJ is NOT a porn site! Ew ew ew! Yes, I know... there are perverts everywhere. Still, though!

Having a good conversation with Hien right now (English / typos / chopstick abuse!), and she LIKES the ghost stories! Everyone should read 'em, haha... that is, if you don't have a tendency to get TOO scared! Mike H., Melvyn W., Wayne H., Rachel H., Marika S., Paul L., John D., Jeff A., Cathy B., Eduardo M., and Evelyn R. have added me for the blood games too.


Edit at 11: The bloody machine restarted AGAIN!

Unlocking ALL flowers and globes! / Awana photos

You should definitely read all the ghost stories that I posted back in late 2004 to see examples. (all of the links are different in the preceding sentence's words, hahaha)

High-scoring words of the night so far:

LEND (138 points) - against George M. [2W, 3W, hook off SQUIRE to make SQUIRED]
EARWIGS (104 points) - against Brenda M. [4W, 3L on W and G]


Wei Long L. / Stephanie S. / Cecilia T. / Clint C. / Kelvin S. / Nicole M. / Patrick W. / Nicoy H. / Marc L. / Todd M. [reminds me of Troy's brother] / Laura A. / Sharlene M. [reminds me of Charlene Lum] / Patrick H. / Matthew H. / Thomas M. / Barb S. / Michel L. / Eric C. / Chelsea B. / Tracy F. / Jonathan E. / Suraaj S. / Allen E. / Jamie H. / Melissa V. / Amanda S. / Joe L. / Cujo Y. / Né W. / Lisa H. / Alistair D. [Dunn] / Chris C. / Sandra S. added me for the blood games, heh. I've unlocked all the flowers [with seeds] and globes [with credits], pending the daily addition / new categories. The eggs [with treats] are harder, but I'll do it - I WILL VANQUISH! *demonic laugh*

I tagged a photo that Margaret took yesterday at Awana, because I was in the background:



(Michelle is... not QUITE smiling, is she?)


Golden just tagged four photos of me:



(Stanley attempting to "strangle" Andrew, Take 1)




(Stanley attempting to "strangle" Andrew, Take 2 - Golden and I just don't look too interested, haha.)




(Andrew and me, looking bored as secretaries!)




(I *think* I'm working in this one... at least, I have an attendance chart and pencil in front of me! Joey, Auntie Rebecca, Emily, Margaret, "I NEED WATER!" Jordan, and others are in the background.)

There are too many Coreys! AH!

Church today was a matter of finding my regular spot, as Jeremy said. We settled on the fourth row a few seats in - definitely harder to slide around on a chair setup, for sure! Raymond followed suit, and I had to tease him about the words he chose to play in Wordscraper! If he's not careful, I'll end up playing "FUCK" in one of our games, hahaha. Talked about welders and oxygen tanks, greeted James and asked about his kids, and wondered where Calla would sit in this new sanctuary! Johnny, Martin, Grace, Mike T., Ivan, Angus, and Chuck were welcomed as new members - YAY! No personal reservations for me, unlike last time!

Discussed sanctuary cities, the chilly church, accidental murder, and NEW BABIES! I thought it was sweet that Jeremy had a bookmark in his Bible RIGHT at the passage we were going to read, haha. Cory's the first baby born in this new church, narrowly beating out Mattias! (Sept. 30 vs. Oct. 9) I should call Helen and congratulate her on Nicholas' brother, haha. But as Eric was saying to me yesterday, that makes TOO MANY COREYS AROUND! Billie's good friend is also named Corey, to say nothing of Colorado Corey OR the misspelled one OR his friend - yikes!

Talked to Sonny for a bit afterwards, and discussed Pokemon / the blood games with Tony and Ivan as well. Jeremy told me that he was going to the Whip for a special cask night: CALIFORNIA, HERE WE COME! Stood around for a while as everyone discussed hockey, Red Wings and rubbing it in, escalation of [domestic / school] violence, what the church would look like when finished, voting, Rasputin, James liking (expensive) Earls, Pho, elections, politics, Alice, support, white shoes, congregating around the entrance being a fire hazard, and busing. It's true that Christon has a birthday dinner tonight at the Afghan (Sheena's fault that she didn't invite me / Eric / Jeremy), but I probably can't make it due to money issues. I'm not signing over any control to anyone else, but I hope someone else does! 'Twas a good discussion with Eric on the way home, oh yes! Blood elves in WARCRAFT, banana peels, and general wackiness DO abound! And he's right: I DO NEED MY SPACE! (accepting responsibility? CHECK.)

Got home to find out that Michael M. has added me to Facebook again - stupid hacked accounts! Paragiotis K., Tamtam S., Lance M., Clark S., Karlien N., Reetta K., and Nicholas T. have all added me for the blood games as well. Priscilla T. added me as well... finally, haha.