Death and mortality

Now, why do I find myself thinking about death and mortality all of a sudden? The last few weeks, I've been thinking about that kind of thing.. this thinking comes and goes in waves. No, I do not have any suicidal ideations or anything like that. But lately, it's been like, "How do I want to go when my time comes? What will it be like to slip into black unconsciousness forever, and will I be aware of it? Will I go to heaven or hell?" Aiya! I just want this to STOP! Maybe what I need to do is talk to my friends who share the same values as I do.. and no, there were no events in my life to set this latest round off, either.

This post sounds morbid, but I'm keeping it here anyhow. :P