Long-distance Internet love affairs
Just heard of something going down the pipeline involving a secret love affair of sorts. Person A ("E") is known to me, and Person B has a secret identity (as of now, anyways). Fine with me.. but Person A has been withdrawing all the time so he can spend all his time with her. Understandable, I guess.. but then Person X told me that she played matchmaker between the two of them! And yes.. this is one of those (presumably long-distance) Internet love affairs that you hear so often about.. AIYOH!!!
As we all (hopefully) know, these Internet love affairs could result in true love.. who knows? Or it could just be an intermittent romantic relationship that fizzles out. (I won't tell you if I'm secretly hoping for this to happen.. MWAHAHAHAHA :P) Sometimes in the eyes of the couple involved, they work. I suppose I'm happy for them.. but the Net is such an ephemeral medium. Who's to say what will work, and what won't? (I know of a few long-distance relationships where the parties involved met through the Net, and that's fine..) Heck, the couple I'm meeting for dinner on Saturday (along with a bunch of others, also from the Net) met through the computer wires. That's excellent for them and for the others.. at least, it is for the couples I happen to like myself, of course. :P
So exactly why the hell is this getting me all riled up? It's not like I have a crush on Person A.. heck, he lives 3000 miles away! (never mind two long-distance Internet relationships I know where Couple A is separated by Melbourne and Florida.. and Couple B is separated by California and Amsterdam) Maybe it's because Person A hasn't been responding to ANY messages I leave him.. but has been to the messages of Person X (at least some of the time). So yeah.. you could say I'm jealous in a way. Maybe of the trust Person A has in Person X.. then again, if Person X set them up in a way, that's perfectly natural. Not sure it means I'm not trustworthy in myself or anything.. eh well.
I'm talking to Person X now, and she keeps telling me to search Person A's posts on a certain board we all frequent. Sure.. maybe after I finish venting / rambling. (but I'm not going to edit this post to reflect people's true identities.. I do have SOME respect for their privacy) Then again, if they're so damn secretive about it.. like, are they ashamed? :P They're probably waiting for a big, splashy announcement to be made.. in like a few weeks. Some of us, however, can't wait that long! (not because I'm nosy so much as I actually want to be in the loop.. I'm notoriously clueless to these things even in real life) Who knows if the secrecy / exclusivity hurts me as well.. it might. (I'm not sure it would in real life..) But it may be time to invoke something someone said to me once, and don't get involved in emotional hang-ups or dramas that exist only within the electronic ether of the Net. (he treats the Net as a "drama-free" zone.. and this advice will be SO heavily applied in this case, especially if E's "girlfriend" is someone I don't like) So if / when they FINALLY announce this.. will I act happy for them? I really have NO idea right now.. we shall see, and time will tell.
Makes me wonder why the hell I'm complaining, though.. it's not like someone will ever have that level of trust in me to say "oh yeah.. we're going out.. but don't tell anyone for at least a month.." anyhow! No.. it is NOT relationship envy, either. I'd rather my relationships be in real life.. though there doesn't seem to be much of a chance with that. Don't know why I feel like that (not sure I should, and I'm happy with my numerous friendships for the most part).. but if it's someone I heartily dislike, then all bets for acting happy are off. :P
Oh well, I'm rambling too much.. me go search now.
After searching, there are no real clues. But if it's the person I might be thinking of (ie. "M").. I don't know that I like her THAT much. Definitely there's no accounting for taste sometimes, though. Now to spend time with people who DON'T keep secrets from me.. coz THEY certainly rock! :P
As we all (hopefully) know, these Internet love affairs could result in true love.. who knows? Or it could just be an intermittent romantic relationship that fizzles out. (I won't tell you if I'm secretly hoping for this to happen.. MWAHAHAHAHA :P) Sometimes in the eyes of the couple involved, they work. I suppose I'm happy for them.. but the Net is such an ephemeral medium. Who's to say what will work, and what won't? (I know of a few long-distance relationships where the parties involved met through the Net, and that's fine..) Heck, the couple I'm meeting for dinner on Saturday (along with a bunch of others, also from the Net) met through the computer wires. That's excellent for them and for the others.. at least, it is for the couples I happen to like myself, of course. :P
So exactly why the hell is this getting me all riled up? It's not like I have a crush on Person A.. heck, he lives 3000 miles away! (never mind two long-distance Internet relationships I know where Couple A is separated by Melbourne and Florida.. and Couple B is separated by California and Amsterdam) Maybe it's because Person A hasn't been responding to ANY messages I leave him.. but has been to the messages of Person X (at least some of the time). So yeah.. you could say I'm jealous in a way. Maybe of the trust Person A has in Person X.. then again, if Person X set them up in a way, that's perfectly natural. Not sure it means I'm not trustworthy in myself or anything.. eh well.
I'm talking to Person X now, and she keeps telling me to search Person A's posts on a certain board we all frequent. Sure.. maybe after I finish venting / rambling. (but I'm not going to edit this post to reflect people's true identities.. I do have SOME respect for their privacy) Then again, if they're so damn secretive about it.. like, are they ashamed? :P They're probably waiting for a big, splashy announcement to be made.. in like a few weeks. Some of us, however, can't wait that long! (not because I'm nosy so much as I actually want to be in the loop.. I'm notoriously clueless to these things even in real life) Who knows if the secrecy / exclusivity hurts me as well.. it might. (I'm not sure it would in real life..) But it may be time to invoke something someone said to me once, and don't get involved in emotional hang-ups or dramas that exist only within the electronic ether of the Net. (he treats the Net as a "drama-free" zone.. and this advice will be SO heavily applied in this case, especially if E's "girlfriend" is someone I don't like) So if / when they FINALLY announce this.. will I act happy for them? I really have NO idea right now.. we shall see, and time will tell.
Makes me wonder why the hell I'm complaining, though.. it's not like someone will ever have that level of trust in me to say "oh yeah.. we're going out.. but don't tell anyone for at least a month.." anyhow! No.. it is NOT relationship envy, either. I'd rather my relationships be in real life.. though there doesn't seem to be much of a chance with that. Don't know why I feel like that (not sure I should, and I'm happy with my numerous friendships for the most part).. but if it's someone I heartily dislike, then all bets for acting happy are off. :P
Oh well, I'm rambling too much.. me go search now.
After searching, there are no real clues. But if it's the person I might be thinking of (ie. "M").. I don't know that I like her THAT much. Definitely there's no accounting for taste sometimes, though. Now to spend time with people who DON'T keep secrets from me.. coz THEY certainly rock! :P
Labels: computer, dinners, friends, internet, life, messages, rants, sarah m., sdmb, ym
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