Sad emotions

it's not a good idea to show sad emotions at Jon's..
I don't want certain people asking what's happening..
frankly, they just would not understand if I told them..
missing people is only acceptable if it's RL people..
gentle kindness DOES make an impression on me..
for that alone, I'm profoundly grateful..
if he weren't around, I don't know what I'd do!
the same goes for my RL friends.. I'm glad they're here..
even they might not understand fully, but they'd try to..
semi-insomnia isn't a great thing here.. what to do?
another day, another round of the usual over here.. um, yay?